I don't know. It just seems like everything gets so muddled these days. But no matter what kind of crap you have to deal with, there is absolutely no excuse to be lazy! Which is why, when I had a flat tire and my last hope was my boyfriend, but he declined because he would "have to get ready for work around that time" (3:30, he works at 5:00...I just needed a ride which would have taken 20 minutes), I was forced to look at this guy seriously.
Seriously? You're 23. You have a part-time job, go to community college part-time, and your highest aspiration is to skate-board. You have even told me on numerous occasions that you don't know what to do or you can't do it because you're "just a kid." Well, I guess you're too young to be in a relationship, yet. Jesus. I was living on my own when I was 17. I had a budget when I was 10. You're 23. Twenty-fucking-three. Grow up.
This throws me into the ranting arena of my title. There are these two girls...lovely things...I admit I have crushes on several girls...But there's this one...I would totally be in a completely monogamous relationship with her...And it doesn't sound or feel weird to think of it. In fact, it sounds nice. It sounds right. It sounds way better than this guy...Yes, I'm bi...But maybe I should lean on the side of the other team for a while. As you can see, I am quite exhausted with men. And if nothing else, I'd at least have a real friend that's a girls...something I've never really had before.
Meh. Fuck it all. What will any of it matter when we're dead, anyhow? We are born in starkness, totally alone. That, too, is how we shall die. No sugar coating it, folks. Life just sucks.
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