Lost Koala

I feel a bit lost today.

Like I'm afraid to take up any space.

But I don't know why.


Sometimes, my days start out great, but take a nose-dive after lunch. Not always, but sometimes. I think I'm just really bummed because I still feel badly about yelling at a student worker. Granted, it was deserved, and I didn't so much yell as I did imply disappointment and frustration in my tone. I mean, come on...If you've worked here for over two years and you still can't remember how to renew a book after I show you almost monthly...
But I should have been kinder to her. I think it just really frustrates and disappoints (how ironic; those words seem to haunt me...) me that I loose my patience so quickly and easily. I've been doing a lot better lately, so this is kind of a blow to my ego. Maybe I haven't been making as much progress as I thought, and I'll still make a horrible mother because I'm so insecure and impatient.

But maybe that's all youth is, and we never really lose it.

:/

Either way, I'm skipping the gym and going home to do homework, cleaning, and wallowing in a bowl of cereal.