Happy Fitness Friday, ya'all! This week I did BodyRock(s) every day (even yesterday and this morning when I thought for sure I was dying and should probably skip the workout - I'm glad, now, that I didn't!)
Monday when I got home from work I did two pinned workouts I've been meaning to try. I did this one all the way through, and was so jazzed that I went straight into this one, by Jillian. Big mistake. The Jillian workout just about killed me! I looked like this afterward:
Anyway, yesterday I did the Vinyasa Flow Yoga class at Heading Om. It felt great! I was hoping it would help my issues, so I set my San Kalpa (it means the intention for your practice) to re-discover my joy. I was even fidgety in yoga class, which never happens! See, I've been having problems lately with being happy. I don't know what it is, but I noticed that I've been calm and happy and great... until about a week ago when The Ginge informed me that he would have to go to Georgia for his re-class training and be gone for four months straight. All this week I've just been depressed and angry... Very like the old me, and not the new, happy me that I have been for the past year or two. So all during class I was trying very hard to relax and be happy... It worked for a bit. Major life upheavals are hard, though. My husband leaving for months at a time, my plunging into the academic deep end, my entire life and routine having to do a complete flip, and lack of day-to-day-support is scary to think about, and it just stresses me out. I know there's nothing I can do to prepare and plan, but I'm a planner - I make lists of what to do on my days off, ok - I NEED to PLAN ALL THE THINGS. And I can't. We could get orders tomorrow saying we have a month to pack our stuff because we're being deployed to Korea or Germany or something like that. It's just... the uncertainty is rough, and there's no way to get ahead or prepare yourself. You just have to roll with whatever hurricane blows through.
I just think this is going to be a harder problem than can simply be solved with a couple deep breaths. Every day I will try to meditate and think back to my San Kalpa, and try to rediscover my joy in life.
What are some challenges you're dealing with right now?
Commiseration and Comfort,
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